last post). So, I'm feeling I really need to dig in deeper to the meaning of this card.
As I shuffled I was asking the Housewives to give me a message to help me with my attitude towards housework. Today, and thru most of last week, I have been slipping. My motivation is lacking, and my house is suffering. I'm having these moments of feeling sorry for myself, complaining that I get no help, that it isn't fair, etc. It's the same story every week. Thru the week I work hard to get my house in order... the laundry caught up, the bathrooms cleaned, the kitchen cleaned, and whatever extra organizing I can manage, on top of dealing with the kids, cooking dinners, and trying to get the best possible deals with coupons at the grocery store and attempting to balance the budget and make sure the bills are paid. Sometimes I get along just fine, happy to do my part, enjoying the blessings of being able to do all these things for my family. But sometimes I just feel bogged down, unappreciated, overworked, and stretched too thin.
The weekends come and go, and for 20 hours of the weekend I am at work, only home on Saturday night to sleep and then back home Sunday evening in time for dinner. During my absence, the house seems to fall apart. No one does the dishes unless they need a clean dish to eat off of, no one clears those flat surfaces of junk, no one does any laundry. Now I can't say I blame my husband... he works all week and deserves to relax on his 2 days off. But I must admit I have been growing bitter at coming home to such a mess after I spend the weekdays keeping it clean.
So as I shuffled my cards, I asked; what can I do to change my attitude about my situation? I am not looking to change my husband, I love him the way he is, and I love the other ways in which he provides for me and our family. But I don't want this bitterness to grow.
The Fool card indicates a new beginning, an new journey of sorts. It's obvious that the housewife on this card needs to pull herself together a little bit... she's so scattered and a bit un-organized. Maybe she needs to prioritize. Maybe she needs a little help. So, maybe it's not a bad thing for me to ask for help, and maybe I'm being a fool thinking I can handle all of this myself! The Fool card often indicates a new attitude, new adventure, new journey. Maybe I'm just going about things the wrong way and I need to re-evaluate and think of things a little differently. Not that I want to shirk any of my responsibilities.... but maybe an attitude adjustment is in order here. I can swallow my pride and ask my husband for help... I just have to make sure I choose my words carefully and let him know I do appreciate what he does... while at the same time re-evaluating my priorities and figuring out just exactly where I want to put my energy and what I need to direct my focus on.... so as not to be the fool running around with mis-matched shoes and a trail of chaos!