Wednesday, July 15, 2009

I really need a Raincoat

Remember this song? Raining in Baltimore by the Counting Crows
"3,500 miles away, but WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE IF YOU COULD?"

It hasn't rained here in so long, but when he says "I really need a rain coat" I feel like I can relate. It's not about Baltimore, and it's not about rain. It's about change, and life, and regrets. But can you really regret anything?

Before I graduated High School I was thinking of going to Art college in Baltimore. But I met my x husband, got married, and had a baby at 18 instead. How different my life would have been if I had persued that scholarship rather than him. But would I change it? No, of course not! I have my beautiful daughter. And from the events that transpired after my divorce, I met my current husband, and we have two more kids together. But sometimes I miss the dream... the possibilities, the could-have-beens.

This circus is falling down on it's knees
the big top is crumbling down
It's raining in Baltimore fifty miles east
Where you should be, no one's around

I need a phone call
I need a raincoat
I need a big love
I need a pone call

These train conversations are passing me by
And I don't have nothing to say
You get what you pay for
But I just had no intention of living this way

I need a phone call
I need a plane ride
I need a sunburn
I need a raincoat

And I get no answers
And I get no change
It's raining in Baltmore, baby
But everything else is the same

There's things I remember and things I forget
I miss you
I guess that I should
Three thousand five hundred miles away
But what would you change if you could?

I need a phone call
maybe I should buy a new car
I can always hear a freight train
if I listen real hard
And I wish it was a small world
Because I'm lonley for the big towns
I'd like to hear a little guitar
I think it's time to put the top down

I need a phone call
I need a raincoat
I really need a raincoat.

By Counting Crows - Lyrics by Adam Duritz


  1. I understand that wistfulness...of what might have been and of course, I would never trade my reality for it but I too have those days where I wonder just like you....I have 2 great kids out of wickedly horrid relationship, like you,met my DH due to the events that occurred after our split, went to college & got my degree while working 3 jobs so I could pay support on my 2 boys who lived with their dad, Mike & I now have full custody and a little princess of our own. Life is good...yet there are those days...I need a raincoat

  2. I really like that song a lot!

    I've seen Counting Crows nine times in concert.

    The second time I ever saw them, they played that song and a giant Barney (the big purple guy) came out behind Adam Duritz--it was awesome!